9/23/2000 3:45 am

I did it. I fucked a porn star. Mila Queen of the Nasty! Fucked her tight 
little body and experienced a satisfying squirt in her pussy.

Very expensive. $2000. Probably could have negotiated her down. But worth it.

The memory of fucking her hot, tight little body, pounding into her sopping wet 
cunt for all I was worth, thinking how many other cocks had been where mine was, 
all my porn star heroes! and there I was, the air filled with the slapping noises 
of my hips banging against her bony pelvis, getting off imagining all the cum this 
girl has inspired, all the men who've jacked off to her or on her or in her...the 
way I had one hand up around the top or her tiny head and the other on her 
shoulder, being careful not to apply any pressure, but nevertheless being aware 
of the power I had over her tiny little form...the memory of grasping her waist 
while fucking her from behind, she was so thin I could almost make both thumbs 
and fingers meet! And through it all, she was so sweet, gracious, willing to 
please, acting sexy...("keep going" she said at one point, "I know you're tired 
but keep going")...

My only regret is that my time ran out before we got to anal sex. Have to leave 
something for next time!

Her body was not a complete 100% 10. Her butt had a couple creases at the top of 
the back of her thighs. It may be it's just natural, that there's no way to get 
rid of that. Her stomach too might have been a couple pounds overweight. Her 
thighs however were perfect, taut and firm. 

Her breasts were nice and small. Sagging a little - she mentioned she was 
thinking of having them lifted.

Her face was very pretty. She had no makeup on and I could see little marks -- 
almost like freckles, maybe blackheads? pockmarks? -- on her cheeks, nose, and 
chin. Her nose was slightly puffy. Shortish blonde hair with black roots.

I came in wanting to fuck my perfect fantasy body in the ass. I picked what I 
thought was the perfect body, and was slightly disappointed. Then my dick didn't 
really get hard enough to stick it in her ass, but I did get to stick my index 
finger all the way in. It was so tight! Unbelievable what that girl has had 
shoved up there. She told me she's taken three cocks at once.

She was just a little too short for me to fuck comfortably: with my dick buried 
all the way in her, her face was around my upper chest-lower neck level, so I had 
to bend unnaturally if I wanted to look at her pretty face. She seemed perfectly 
willing to nuzzle -- it would have been great to kiss her comfortably, or nuzzle 
in her neck, while screwing her.

Her attitude was very accommodating. She tried hard to make me feel at ease. Not 
very bitchy at all. 

Chief regrets:
     Not negotiating the price with her, and not getting around to fucking her 
in the ass!

9/24
Okay! Here are my rationalizations for having paid $2000 to fuck a porn star! 
I'm happy with them so leave me alone!

1) It's a once-in-a-lifetime experience. (Unless I get enough money to do it more 
often...)

2) I might have impressed her as someone who can throw away $2000 without missing 
it. (Strange thing is, I can afford it right now.)

3) I suck at negotiating. Also, I paid for anal. Next time I'll do better!

4) It gave me an idea of how much money I would need to keep a girl like that 
around. (If I was Rocco Siffredi, I could keep her satisfied by sticking my dick 
up her ass -- "I love the feel of his dick in my ass" she said when I asked her 
about Rocco. Unfortunately I ain't Rocco Siffredi.)

Imagine having her flown in to your own private island retreat for a week, being 
able to comfortably afford whatever price makes her happy...

She is a good actress. Pay enough for her services, and she will perform whatever 
role you wish.